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Heartbreak

How long?

Will it be days, months?
Your love will not complete me,
we will never make it,
as it will destroy and defeat me.

Will you ever say them,
those three little words,
will you ever set yourself aside,
and put me first?

I want you so much,
my heart aches,
yet you don’t feel that way,
my heart breaks,

does it matter what I say?
can I mean something to you?
or am I just convenient for now,
will you ever follow through.

It’s like the love I feel;
is devouring me from within,
it’s like the love you lack,
is an addictive thing.

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I want out

I want out, is what I wanted to say to you
But to even think that, hurts.
I don’t want to be without you,
but I can’t stand not being in control.

I can’t handle it well, how my magic does not work,
I wish you were in as deeply as little old me
so you could see and feel the horror,
the constant thinking about the other.

it’s like I totally lost myself cause you came around,
my heart is just lying there like a lost and found.
you picked it up, not sure if you wanted it,
and now I am stuck with you, kid.

if I could take a pill and forget about you
I probably would
thought the hopeless romantic in me, wouldn’t have understood.
the love I feel for you is amazing in many ways,
but it is tearing me down, fucking me up at the same time.

it’s like two people are pulling on me, one of them wanting me to stop,
yelling at me bout how stupid I am
that you don’t love me, not even close,
and that you probably fuck some other hoes.

and then there is the other person pulling me,
full of love, being angry with me for even thinking about an out.
making me feel butterflies and warmth,
taking my breath away when I look at you.

and I am in the midst not handling things well.
jumping from an ecstatically happy state
into a constant stream of nothingness and depression.
I don’t think you understand what is really here.

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A salty, soury thing

I asked you that night,
If you believed in unanswered love,
Your reply hurt me in a million ways,
especially when you blamed me for how hard I tried.

Why am I the one feeling so bad,
When you are the one not able to love?
Why am I something unclear to you,
While you are everything to me, it’s sad.

Why do they always sing
about the sweet stuff,
while love is mostly
a very salty, soury thing?

We are supposed to believe in fairytales,
And for a long time I did,
Silly me still thinks you are that prince,
But that is just my heart that fails.

The thing that hurts me the deepest,
is how you can’t seem to let me go.
You tell me you can’t love me,
but you do not want to be friends.

You do not want to miss out on me,
You hold me close, it’s almost a chokehold,
Just because you feel so guilty,
As you’re the reason we can’t be.

The cards have been played, boo
But I am not the one who shuffled,
Yet I need to make this decision,
But how do I unlove you?

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The whispers

No matter how official things get,
there will always be the whispers.
Those little things we do not say,
Sometimes thats bad, sometimes okay.

When you leave me in the morning,
And I close the door behind you.
Softly I would whisper:
Silly dude, I love you.

No matter how serious we are,
there will always be the whispers.
Things we do not speak about,
Things we don’t dare to say out loud.

Anytime I send you a little heart,
It is not just because I want attention.
It’s because I got your back.
Even after the friendzone.

No matter how long we’ll be together,
There will always be the whispers.
Stuff I tell my friends about you,
how I tell them this love feels so true.

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Someone else

When our eyes meet,
it’s always fireworks.
We know it’s on,
a perfect attraction.

I wish I had this,
with someone else.

When you put your arms
around my waist,
Automatically I lean in,
For a kiss that makes me want to sin.

I wish I had this,
with someone else.

When we are done,
We lay down together,
I realise how much I care.
Oxitocine everywhere.

I wish I had this,
with someone else.

We can talk for hours,
you showing interest in me,
Me listening to what you did,
It’s lovely, we are so connected.

I wish I had this,
with someone else.

There is always this moment,
When I realise, looking at you,
that I am more invested in this,
while for you it’s just a kiss.

I wish I had this,
with someone else.

You will never truly love me,
even though so much love is shared.
What we have is nearly perfect,
but at the same time it’s bad.

I wish I had this,
with someone else.

 

I wish I had this,
with someone else, handsome
but somehow I can only love you.
Even knowing this can’t be true.

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The one I don’t want to love

You can’t possibly feel the same way about me,
You know it, I know it,
You have told me a couple of times,
but the underlying reasons differ.

You can’t possibly feel the same way about me,
If you do not know how to love.
If you do not know how to receive love,
How could you ever believe in love?

How unfair must this cupid be,
For shooting his arrow towards me,
hitting, but then missing his next target.
How can love be so unkind?

I have so much to offer,
but yet it will all be wasted,
Every bit of love is tainted,
with the knowledge that you don’t love me back.

why can’t you just love me back,
even if it is just for a minute?
I have loved you for all these months,
Even though you forbid it.

Another salty tear runs down my cheek,
Feeling like such a loser,
Knowing you will never be able to give,
the greatest gift of all.
I would have expected this to make you sad too,
Not for me, but sad for you.

If you aren’t able to love the girl, that will love you the most,
What will the rest of your life be?
The healthy thing for me now is to leave.
To close this chapter, just like I close the door on you, every time you leave,

This time without whispering I love you,
but rather work hard to get you out of my head.
But I am so afraid of that moment,
That loneliness,
knowing that you are still somewhere in the world,
somewhere without me.

I am so afraid knowing that my one true love,
Is actually fake, fake from the get-go.
And I am feeling so stupid for knowing,
knowing all these years that this was going to happen.

I will love you, forever.
Even though it is fucking dumb.

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Deserving

It’s easy but not true to say
you don’t deserve my love,
You do, you are amazing,
you are kind and sweet.

It’s not easy but true to say
I cannot receive your love.
I am just not it for you,
you are not able to love me.

Or so you say,
Cause I hear you and
I will say that I understand,
deep down I refuse to believe it.

I can’t imagine Cupid shooting
so badly, he’s been doing it for years.
I want to think that it is just you,
not being able to get rid of your fears.

Silly, I know, I am a girl
looking for love in the wrong places,
Ending up with people,
that had so many faces.

Often I get so tired of that,
not being able to expect realness,
always needing to be planning
planning for the worst.

This worst I could not have been planning though,
I would never expect it to go down this way,
And together we are in such a nice flow,
I can’t believe we are not okay.

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The former

I can’t even remember how it started,
The dark clouds have been around for a while,
All I know is that day you confused me.
And after you never went the extra mile.

Take me down just a little bit more
It does not even really matter what you say.
What are relationships really for?
If the love and the lust so easily fade away.

I have let you push me off the pedestal,
I wasn’t even on in the first place.
And now we are acting even stranger than strangers,
In this godforsaken time and space.

I am not something to be picked up,
From a convenience store around the corner.
But have a good transition, man,
From my lover, you now became a former.

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Happiness

For a friend

If love is the greatest thing in the world,
Why has it been feeling like the worst?
Just asking for a friend.

If making love is the ultimate way of becoming one,
Why is it often the start of goodbye?
Again, just asking for a friend.

My friend would also like to know,
Why the guy is holding her hand so perfectly,
When we are outside, is it just for show?

My friend wonders about that hand,
Cause that is an act of the heart,
The same heart that cast her out.

What it really comes down to is this,
Does love need to be easy?
Can’t wait to hear back from you.

Love,

A friend

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Obey

I thought it would change,
through time, through distance,
First it seemed you could change,
your feelings about me.

Now I learn that it’s not the case,
And the other way around things aren’t changing either.
No matter where you are,
I love you from afar.

I need to obey,
Not for anyone,
but for us.

When we text I feel like,
writing in all caps how much I love you,
How much you are on my mind,
the part you play in my life.

However, it is not a part
you want to play,
Though we both know it is
not a matter of choice.

I need to obey,
Not for me,
but for you.

You want me close,
but not too close.
You want to see me badly,
but not too often.

A constant push and pull with you,
Everytime I think yes, you say no,
And when I finally let go,
You lure me back in right away.

I am not sure how much longer
I can put up with it.
But on the other hand,
I know I have no choice.

I need to obey,
Not for you,
but for me.

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