“Finally”, you sighed,
“everything is back to normal again”,
It had indeed been hectic,
But that is basically my life, my friend.
You wanted something to hold on to tightly,
Something to trust,
But I was checking out quietly.
Realizing what was my curse.
I can’t be stable, it’s just not me,
When I get stuck,
when I feel stuck,
All I want is to be free.
I am not treating you right by wanting this,
I know I am not, I know,
But this big old hole, it’s still in my heart,
cause there’s something I miss.
Something that will make me incomplete,
something that should have been there,
Maybe it’s unmendable,
Maybe it makes me obsolete.
It is hard to make this so much about my feelings,
Cause it will affect you,
Just like it will affect anyone around me,
And how to handle it, I have no clue.