You can talk to me,
You told her.
As a while from now no one will ask you
How you are doing.
My heart broke as I heard you speak
The girl that never wants to hear the question
So hey, how have you been?
The girl that even avoids the question at all times.
Later you told me you are so happy
That that guy that has not treated you well
Is so invested in your well-being
Asking you how you are doing, and really care about it too.
I cry on the inside when you speak the words
Cause that same day I had this awful feeling all day
And I got the courage to finally ask you, hey how are you doing, knowing you would hate it.
And all I got was exactly what I expected.
Just a wall, a facade, saying haha I’m fine, you crazy
I can’t be there for my friend.
Not because I don’t want to
But because she won’t let me.
It’s up to her of course,
If she feels better confiding in Mr random,
All I ask is don’t lie to me.
You know exactly what you are doing.
You can’t fool me
You are only fooling yourself.
And hurting me in the process.
For loving you and being by your side.
It’s not fair, and yet I can’t do anything about it.
Guess I’m just for fun.
Kinda like you were to that guy before
You now appreciate so much.
It’s all so contradictory
And it got me feeling handicapped, stupid, sad.
Telling myself this is just a phase,
Being debris in your devastating ways.